My first post: Why are we here?

Hi. Well, I guess some back round is pertinent for a first blog post. I'm 26, a student in the health field. I have been married to a wonderful man for four years and next year in May we celebrate 10 years of relationship and I am a follower of the Buddhist teachings. I guess I started this blog as a way of going through some of the teachings, opening them for discussion with anyone who has always wanted to ask questions but has never felt asking was the right thing to do. Or perhaps you feel similarly to me: You feel lost and have no idea which way to turn.

I have always been disillusioned by the world in which we live. I wouldn't go so far as to say that I've hated my time here but it has never been easy. I have experienced losses, gains and times of great joy. I have always been a fairly spiritual person and although I was drawn at one stage to Christianity, it always bugged me that I had to go on blind faith. I had to listen to sermons and believe that a man or god died for me 2000 odd years ago. Christianity is a faith that many cling to and believe. I will never try to convince a Christian otherwise as that is their faith and I don't believe anyone has the right to come between another and their faith. I just never believed it in my soul.

After two years of religious classes I walked away from the faith that my husband followed, Catholicism and I guess for the last five years I've floundered aimlessly around searching and yet not. I would walk around stating "I don't believe in organised religion" or "It's not the beliefs; it's the people". So, I would often ask the universe to guide me, so that I at least wasn't needing to rely on blind faith alone ,and guide me it did. It brought me here and to the Buddhist faith.

I have always believed there is more to life then the draining, aimless consumption and desire driven world we live in. There is a whole range of beauty surrounding us and yet we feel alone, lost and that the beauty is gone. It hasn't gone: We simply move too fast in this day and age to see it.

So, I guess that brings me to the basis of my new blog: I am going to find and read different texts on Buddhism, as I have been doing. Then I will go over it. Write about it and my own veiws on it. If people discuss then great! We can discuss. If not, then I will simply just keep writing.